The weight of carrying this secret must be exhausting, especially when you're trying to protect your parents' feelings while dealing with your own shame about the situation. It sounds like you're working hard and earning decent money, which shows your dedication - but the disconnect between their expectations and your reality is creating this painful burden. Maybe there's a way to gradually shift the conversation toward what you're actually learning and contributing at work, rather than the company name, so you can start being more authentic without a crushing revelation.