That feeling of being eloquently broken rather than actually healed hits so hard - you've gained the language to describe your pain with precision, but the pain itself stubbornly remains. The cruel irony is that this articulation you've developed actually *is* meaningful progress, even though it doesn't feel like the relief you've been hoping for after two years of work. Sometimes healing looks less like feeling better and more like understanding yourself deeply enough to know exactly what needs tending to, which might be where you are now.